I am writing this post today, in a state of extreme happiness, pure joy and a sentiment that has left me feeling honoured and proud to be a part of this wonderful community we call Hamilton.
I had the absolute honour of meeting with the wonderful Sheryl Nadler from Hamilton Spectator, to chat with her for her Who What Wear section of the paper. I was left almost ecstatic when she reached out to me and said she would love to feature me in her column/section. Me? Really? Are you sure? Thats basically what went through my head as we exchanged emails back and forth.
I met with the wonderful photographer herself earlier this week to shoot an outfit that basically represented me and my style. Something that would reflect what i stand for in a snapshot.
And of course. I had only one motive in mind. To tell my story. To tell my readers, where i came from, how i transitioned to become the person i am today and what i hope to continue to strive for as we go through this beautiful yet challenging process of ‘growing up.’
For the actual article itself, click here.
Obviously i chose to go back to my roots, my culture and my Hometown/Country. Being a Pakistani/Canadian, i have always felt a strong urge to stay true to my origin. Now trust me, when i say this, it has been a deliberate effort.
When trying to ‘fit in’ there were times, when all i wanted to do was to NOT stand out. NOT be that girl with a deeper skin tone, or that oddly draped shirt, or that shalwar that no one could recognize or understand. But life has a funny way of teaching you a lesson.
As i went through my undergraduate years (and my friends will attest to this), i changed. I continue to change today, primarily because of an active regime involving self-reflection, logs and meditation. But i did change. And the latter years saw a change so drastic, sometimes i would take a double take looking at myself in the mirror. And no, i don’t mean it in a ‘oh i look so good, flip my hair’ kind of a way.
I started to realize the importance of not faking it. I started to realize the importance of not merely trying to fit in, to change who i was, streamline my traits to fit the overlying norm. Needless to say, all of that made me really unhappy. It made me lose touch with myself and made me super unconfident in my own skin. And i guess you could say, that it was that act of self-reflection that led me to this change. Led me to become who i am today.
Now trust me. All i would like to do here is talk about this ‘journey.’ But i’m not sure if you guys are still reading. Ooops. #rambler. So i’ll stop. And share a few pictures of the outfit i chose for the shoot.
I Outfit Details I Top: Express I Cardigan: DAS I Pants: Generation I Necklace: Aldo I Choker: Topshop I Rings: Pakistan I Shoes: Street Vendor, Pakistan I Bag: Khaadi I
So here’s my ensemble. A modern take utilizing more traditional elements. I love the embroidery and the flare on the pants, the femininity of the shoes and of course the cardigan that i designed myself. Its black and white, my most favourite colour palette with a pop of red on the lips and purse. Classic Dania.
Hope you guys liked this post!
Let me know if you would like me to ramble some more about my journey. Because you know, this is basically like my diary.
Love you all so much!
Until Next Time,
Stay safe, Stay gorgeous!